I have come to the conclusion that i have no real friends at all any more. None that care anyways. take this how ever you want for those of you that are reading this but you really figure out who your true friends are when you leave. Not die no. When you die the people that come to your funeral your wake they are there because knew you they knew who you were or had heard of you in gossip or maybe they are there just for moral support for the family and not to say their goodbyes at all. But when you move somewhere only about 30 minutes away and not one of your so called " Best Friends " Give two shits to call you every once in a while to see how you are or if you want to "hang out" thats when reality sinks in that they never gave two shits about you. And for those of you like that you are no better than a leach on someones back using and minipulating them so to all of you "friends" i say fuck it i give up on trying to stay friends from now on if you call me.



To Chris:
Chris we used to be so close even after i moved you seemed like such a happy person. Plans of joining the army and a futer all planned out. i just wish i knew what happened that day. I wish i haddent of moved then we would have hung out like normal and went for the walk to no where with all the same quetions at hand. You trying to get me high on random things and me turning you down. lol. my dog chasing you and me and running through the woods like crazy. Showing me all of the places you and your dad go hunting and i showing you all my favorite spots throughout the forest. Every thursday going to the Future Soldiur Training and reminising about when we were little and playing together in school and on the bus. Chris i am going to miss you so much. i hope you know that.
love me